Christian had a Halloween party last night. Sort of. It was more like another night of drinking. It was fun, until Christian tried to pull the wool over my eyes when her mom came home. I understand what Kyla meant by being my own being and not an accessory of Andrew’s.

When Andrew was gone away, I figure I acted differently, maybe. Not entirely. I guess spending so much time with Christian went to her head, because she has been trying so desperately to get me away from Andrew.

But you know what? I may have been intoxicated last night, but not enough to put up with shit. I haven’t wanted to spend time with Christian hardly since Andrew’s been back, but it has nothing to do with Andrew. It’s COMPLETELY to do with the fact that Christian back stabbed me so terribly that I don’t understand why she can’t see how badly that affected me. You pull that shit on me and then try to break me and my boyfriend up? NO NO NO. You are sadly mistaken. We’ve been through worse; we’ll make it through this.

As for me not being “Tabby” any more to Christian and Kyla…I’ve been in a slump, but last night really did get me thinking. So I’ll be me. No one knows Tabby better than I do, so I believe no one else has the merit to tell me who I truly am.

I love my boyfriend. He takes care of me and loves me through everything. I couldn’t ask for better.

I think…

I’m completely in love with my best friend. Having him back is amazing, even with all the complications that have happened. :) I’ve missed him soooo much. We got to spend the night together the other day, and it was simply perfect.

Right now all we need to do is get jobs and save up. Get an apartment. I’m so happy he’s here. I don’t want to let him go, just hold him to me, kiss and make love until the morning comes. <3